And You Thought Reading Deprivation was Scary

I really hate it when someone uses a bible verse out of context, and this one is abused to no end.

“For with God, nothing shall be impossible.” Luke 1:37

This is the Archangel Gabriel talking to Mary. He had told her some pretty amazing things. She said, “What? How?” and Gabriel told her how – because God is doing the doing, it is possible.

“Possible” is not about figuring out what you want and then squeezing your eyes tightly shut, and praying or wishing really, really, really hard that you get what you want. It’s not “setting an intention” and then believing it into existence. Or The Secret of getting what you want by attracting your wants and needs to yourself like a magnet.

It’s about hearing God’s call and then believing, nay, KNOWING that there is a way. Even if it sounds to you like there is no way that God can accomplish it. And that is really, really, really hard for me. That’s why this next chapter in The Artist’s Way is scaring me:

Week 5: Recovering a Sense of Possibility. This week you are being asked to examine your payoffs in remaining stuck. You will explore how you curtail your own possibilities by placing limits on the good you can receive. You will examine the cost of settling for appearing good instead of being authentic. . . One of the chief barriers to accepting God’s generosity is our limited notion of what we are in fact able to accomplish. We may tune in to the voice of the creator within, hear a message — and then discount it as crazy or impossible.”

Yikes! In fact, I read the first paragraph of the new chapter, then slammed the book closed and walked away. That was too close to home.

But then, after few deep breaths and a Hot Flash of Anxiety, I picked up the book and bravely scanned down the next page:

“. . .you may be thinking that this sounds like the magic-wand chapter: I pray and presto!. . .What we are talking about seems to be a conscious partnership in which we work along slowly and gradually, clearing away the wreckage of our negative patterning, clarifying the vision of what it is we want, learning to accept small pieces of that vision from whatever source and then, one day, presto! The vision seems to suddenly be in place. In other words, pray to catch the bus, then run as fast as you can.

“For this to happen, first of all, we must believe that we are allowed to catch the bus. . .If we learn to think of receiving God’s good as being an act of worship. . .we can begin to let go of having to sabotage ourselves.” -Julia Cameron, The Artist’s Way

And at that point I slammed the book closed again and ran away to make a few phone calls to distract myself from letting it all sink in too deeply.

Stop self sabotage? This is a joke, right?

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~ by Kimberly Mason on January 14, 2009.

2 Responses to “And You Thought Reading Deprivation was Scary”

  1. That’s it. I am not moving on to chapter 4 or 5. Well, maybe I will soon. I guess it’s a journey full of enrichment. Reach out and grab it, Kim. It will be okay, right?

  2. Hmm. I suspect this must be about where I quit that path, back in ’97. I bought the book as a sort of therapeutic exercise after my mother died in January of that year. And it’s what set me on the path of photography (quite a miracle, actually). But I remember at some point getting blocked and setting it down; wonder if this might be where it happened. Because “With God all things are possible” is the Ohio state motto (I grew up in Ohio) but I’m still working to assimilate that…

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