I’m a Little Bugged
This morning I received an email that told me someone has unsubscribed from my blog. That’s the first time I have ever received such an email. Of course, email notification of unsubscribers is a new feature at WordPress, but, nevertheless, it’s the first time I’ve been notified that someone has decided my blog content is no longer relevant.
And it bugged me. I stewed on it all morning. Someone doesn’t like me anymore.
I know, I know, I can intellectualize all day long that it doesn’t really matter. I didn’t know her, I’d never heard of her. We weren’t friends in a fight. She didn’t quit me in a huff.
Of course, this is SUPPOSED to be a quilt blog, and I haven’t posted anything quilty in quite a long time. But heck, I haven’t posted often enough to piss anyone off over my off-topic subject matter either.
Isn’t it funny how a tiny little incident can upset our apple cart. One little bug can create such a huge wave of anxiety, followed by ripples of inadequacy and self-flagellation.
It’s silly. I know. That’s why I’m telling you about it. So I’ll stop feeling so ridiculously inadequate.
In my One Year Later blog I was just talking about how there is a prayer for everything in the Book of Common Prayer. While writing this post I thought I’d go look to see if I could find one to fit this moment. Sure nuff:
For Quiet Confidence: O God of peace, who has taught us that in returning and rest we shall be saved, in quietness and in confidence shall be our strength: By the might of thy Spirit life us, we pray thee, to thy presence, where we may be still and know that thou art God; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.